I'm looking out at an open sea in a small boat and I don't even have paddles.
I feel like God is telling me to be ok with this picture. I have to be ok with having 0 expectations or major plans right now... because He will provide the adventure. By the end of the new years eve festivities I slowly became really sad. I realized how I didn't have any major traveling adventures to look forward to this year and turning 22 isn't really all too exciting. So then that causes me to ask God this question, how do I make this year more about you and less about me?
What can I do this year to further His kingdom and not just go with what I think is the next thing? I told myself I didn't want to act on a whim anymore... I wanted to go to God first with everything I even THINK about doing. Whether it's a relationship or career, I want God to be the first to say what's next. So when it comes to 2010, I'm going to let God unfold what's next... I don't have a say because what I have tried in the past has failed.
So here's to the new year and learning to hear God speak!