January 23, 2010


I've been sick these past few days (temp. of 103) and it has given me a lot of time to think, that is when my head isn't throbbing. I watched an entire film on the Weatherman Underground and was just in shock for most of the time. I hate admitting that most likely, if I were alive during that time... I would have wanted to just stay out of everything and not bother anyone.

I pray that God puts a passion that can't be quenched in my heart
for the broken and lost.

I'm tired of my lack of urgency to DO anything. And how easily we forget the power of prayer and how BIG God is. I may not be able to do anything physically but there is a spiritual warfare going on and I can take part in that. I was reading more about abortions and I hate that I haven't done more about this before. There is going to be a night of prayer and worship at Faith Christian Fellowship on Tuesday night. I plan on putting my faith to work that night and living out what I am called to do in this life.

Like my dad said on Sunday, "God didn't call us to be just nice people" If that were it, I would have been out of the game a long time ago. Jesus shook the culture around him at that time... He wasn't there to make "good people." The disciples wouldn't have been beaten, killed, stoned and imprisoned for me to be moral. GOD the creator of all the heavens and earth wouldn't have sent His son to die a horrible death on the cross just so I could hopefully get up on a Sunday morning and go to church.

He sent His son so I could live. Not a life restricted with rules but a life full of REAL joy and hope. I have something to live for and I have a God that loves me so much. Our bodies are all destined to die... ever since the fall. And God has so much mercy that He allows us to constantly fail but try again.

Like a child learning to walk, my Father doesn't get angry when I fall
but rejoices when stand up and take that first step.

I honestly don't know where this came from... kind of vomited words just then. Felt like I needed to write that and I probably needed to say it out loud for myself more than anyone else.

I want to leave you with one of my favorite bands and one of their many terrific songs:


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